everything sucks!
what am i supposed to do now?
stare into blank space???
thing are just not gg the right way, everything just came one after another n seems to pile on. no wonder people say that bad things come together one after another.
i''m already trying very very hard not to let it affect my life, and most importantly, my team of girls. but i just can't help it. should i say i'm suay?
as the days goes by, it seems further n further, i really hope that i'll be fine soon, so that i can make good use of training time, but i feel like i'm really wasting it n there's only one more month left.
initially, i thought that there's still two months left, so i looked forward to it's recovery. time has proved me wrong. it's still there. is it because i didn't rest enough? if it is, it's all my fault.
i really don't wanna pull them down, that's why i've been trying really really hard. but it's still the same. i even thought of replacing myself with XX. but, i still want to train, i don't know, i'm confused.
went to the doc yesterday with adriano. at least hers take 3 months or full recovery, but mine?? 9 MONTHS! what am i supposed to do while it gets better? i don't have the luxury of time!
aft that meet niang on the train n took the bus home tgt. papa was sick, mut be not enough rest n all the things that happened recently. my world revolves around it. even though i think of it during lectures, it's still like that. okok, STOP!
but i just want you to know, please don't blame yourself, it all started with me n i really don;t know what to do. i want to see the bubbly u again!!