things are much better i hope, n i'm still trying to improve myself, taking whatever criticism that comes my way as a learning point so that i'll be better in maintaining all kinds of relationships, esp what i've been in contact with for the past 18 years of my life. hai.

tmr is wed, so fast. a few more days i'll say goodbye to 2G, cos mdm alya is coming back. hahas, think i'll miss em. learnt quite a bit there few weeks. wonder what e school have for me to do next week, hope it's something better than now, hahas... please please...
managed not to procrastinate there few days, so manged to get some stuff done.
yea! next week cny! hope to enjoy it!

today is monday. another new beginnning. can't wait for something to change my life. rah.

my mood was on a rollercoaster last friday. haven't been feeling so bad ever since a long long time ago... i was so happy that i've learnt to survive with it and grow out of it back in tj, but alas! i'm wrong! it's back again! is it e school or is it e timing? i wonder... hais. :(
anyway, in e morning, it went tumbling down down down... and when it sarted to pick up, something happened to gen, her things in her thunbdrive disappeared! and she cried, my heart sank immediately, seeing how lost she was. i really really very much wanted to help, but guess someone beat me to it, i'm always one step behind, can't i react faster?! rah! but girl! 不管发生什么事, 要坚强k? that's what i have been telling myself all these while too, but sometimes it's easier said than done, esp when it keeps coming n u have to embrace yourself everytime. it's tiring.
it's true that you'll gain something when u lose something, well, she gained the love letters from her 2A. i reallythink she's one lucky happy girl. so it isn't that bad after all, we are just never satisfied. but i just can't see what have i gained. sometimes gg to school everyday is just a mundane chore like 2 years ago.
thinkin back, were the days i spent in tj happier? more carefree? cos i just don't just hold on tight and just let go?
oh... i miss my darling huiqi!! all e talking n seeing u everyday, miss it so so much. u just suddenly poof out of my life this year, haven't got used to it yet. n my tkd ppl, i really really miss them. they were the ones who made my life much much happier in tj. withiut them, it would be super boring like most others experience. i guess thay wre the reason why i think jc life isn't that bad after all, unlike what e others thought of jc n didn't really miss it at all.
i thought i wouldn't miss it but in fact i did! as i alighted at bedok last wed to go back n train with holy, all e memories flooded back. as i walked past e coffeeshop n market, i missed e times when e lunch clique argued whether to go left or right. and e tkd ppl, where we trained till our muscles ache at night and e glucolin we gluped to keep our strength there. going home with niang n chasing the tortise no 3 late at night ard 11 plus... awwww... hai.
well, they were sweet memories at least.

下雨天的空气
就是那么逼人
情就象没生命的树苗
慢慢枯去

潮湿的周围
给人一种约束
阻止你向前冲, 向前进
充实的过着每一天

为什么天天都是下雨天?
没有一天是晴天?
难道人生就是这么样
你必须寻找它的晴天

为什么天天都像大雨天?
没有温暖的阳光?
人生的道路都是这样吗?
充满着荆棘的谎言?

sometimes life just ain't fair.
you tried harder than others but they get more, or is it i just didn;t try hard enough n wasn't sincere enough?
but sometimes i'm just tired, is that a sin too?
i'm already trying very hard but jus don't see any results.
yes.
人生是不公平的.
只要没做对不起人的事那就足够了吗? 满足了吗?

为什么世上有悲欢离合?
难道就不能只有兴高采烈的存在.
有时后你只想放齐, 但知道必须撑下去...
每天都遇道许多种考验, 但那些只是让我门更坚强的途径.
抱握每一天的快乐,抛掉那震愤人心的烦恼,才能充实的度过没一天, 并不留下任何后悔.
告诉自己, 我已经做了我该做的事, 其于的听天由命吧!
明天会更好! :)

RAH!
sometimes when u feel something is not right n everything just come crashing down n n jus feel like hiding at home n sort things out first before u feel like doing anymore things. well, that's exactly how i am right now!! everything is not gg e way they are!!!!
sorry gen, if i still don't feel like gg to sakae tmr, hope he's working on friday.
whatever...
if they continue to piss me off again they'll know!
played volley with gen after school, could see that she loved n missed it so much! n i had her as my coach! mnaged to do something n my arm now is like red patches of little dots everywhere. whatever. it kinda looked funny, but whatever la.
back to what i'm supposed to do! n there's still so man things to be done. whatever la, seriously...

i woke up feeling nothing. confused of my present state. can't believe i'm doing this, hahas. even as i make my way to andrew road after school i still feel a bit wierd. then after i reached e reception, only then thati start to feel my heart pounding, well, luckily it stopped before i went in. n i stare at e black hole once again n said what i was supposed to, but i think i didn't do that well, anyway, there were a lot of ppl, don't thinki can make it. yup, so now i am out of my shock n felt e normal, mudane life i'm gg to have. but boring or not, it's up to me to decide!

well, finally gotten e pics from gen after helping her do her ss slides! hahas... added this sir stanford raffles pic n e merlion pic to her blue slides which i said e colour combi is oh my! kiddin la... darling! hahas. so whoever sees it, rmb i added e merlion n raffles n malaysia pictures! hahas... hahas. ok! so here are e pictures we took during camp n on sat!
firstly... e 招牌 muddy feet!
then... aft e girls went to sleep...


finally! e 3rd day!
n on saturday! after we shopped till our feets dropped! satisfied shoppers!

grouchy... hahas... no la.jus do for fun! :)

this is my life.

sat! but no dance day today! feel a bit bad to miss it. guess lao shi must be angry! i'll try to be on time next sat! no more late! i'll leave my house at 830 sharp!
okok, enough about this, so gen came to accompany me! luckily she came right on time n i was up there le! whew! so she no need waste time queue with me! hahas...
e ppl queuing near me was quite funny... i was amazed by their actions, hahas... n i'm so glad that i got in e first round! shocked till now. tot i'll just try my luck since i can afford e time now, but nth is sweeter than having my si dang there for me!
then... shopping! i bought this white watch! very nice! too bad my phone sot, can't upload e photos... gen bought this blouse n shirt from esprit n this tube top from isetan, quite nice though...
oh! oh!
n i just came back from camp on friday! u should call it muddy camp! hahas... now my toenails r like contaminated with mud, hahas...
but it was fun! u just sink your whole leg into e mud n pluck it out, hahas... i took photos, but can't upload, wasted!
n guess what!? i shared a room with gen n XX. oh my! i didn't believe snoring could be so loud until i heard XX's! seriously i really 佩服 XX. i'm not trying to be bad but i really find it amusing describing it as bulldozer! okok, no more teasing!
on e first day gen was too tired n i was trying really hard to fall asleep, i only succeeded after like one hour or so at 3 am in e morning cos i was really tired n we had to wake up at 630! can't believe i slept so much!
after the camp i learnt more on how to be a FT, though it's only for a month, but e girls were really cute n i loved them a lot! though some of them were quite playful n there were times they disappointed me. but they were still lovable! i promise to give my best for them!
tmr must learn my theory... hahas... n i miss vegetable!
hahas

saturday! dance day! hahas... went for dance at foo chow today. met herman on e way n i discovered that there's actually a job called programme management, e one he's doing. wow! sounds interesting! they do things like MTV n drama serials for mediacorp, cos they kind of outsource these jobs to companies... :)
so we did our normal drills n stuff. my legs ache sia... but i think they are getting stronger... cos aft that i went shopping again n they don't ache so much like before! maybe cos i practise shopping every week after dance for a month le. hees hees... n i bought this pair of trousers from mango. nice.
ytd helped mrs ong do some camp stuff. was super annoyed n irritated at first cos e names were all over the place n it was so difficult to find n e list was super super long! hahas. so i was grumbling all e while n poor gen had to bear with me. i'm so sorry gen! :(
and as we go along, e list became easire n easier to read n slowly i started laughing at all e different kinds of food allergies n started making comments cos i was just too bored! im not trying to be mean but i just find some of them really amusing! like allergy to bird's nest? hee hee. but no offence. n e girl is in my class, hahas. i shall try n forget who she is less that i'll start laughing when i'm remindedof this allergy. hahas.
yum! yum! i miss e school food! esp e chicken rice stall!!!! n e malay stall!!!! didn't have e time to eat them. i promise myself that i'll eat it next week. monday malay rice n tuesday chicken rice. hahas.
i saw this pair of shoes at novo! i loved it! but don't have my size... boos... i shall try other shops if i'm not lazy tmr. hahas.

first day at work!!
felt different working with the teachers which i once was so afraid of, hahas... but they were really nice ppl!!
felt nice to be back there again! esp with gen too! felt a sense of last time but a thinge of difference, but nontheless, i'm still super happy n glad about it. :) love her loads. can't imagine w/o her in my sec school life. it'll sure be different! love u, 死党 aka my chao da bao!
stayed till quite late in school today cos got induction, tired. yawns!
was a bit disappointed today. :(
well, live life as it is now. :)

IT'S 2008!!!!