my mood was on a rollercoaster last friday. haven't been feeling so bad ever since a long long time ago... i was so happy that i've learnt to survive with it and grow out of it back in tj, but alas! i'm wrong! it's back again! is it e school or is it e timing? i wonder... hais. :(
anyway, in e morning, it went tumbling down down down... and when it sarted to pick up, something happened to gen, her things in her thunbdrive disappeared! and she cried, my heart sank immediately, seeing how lost she was. i really really very much wanted to help, but guess someone beat me to it, i'm always one step behind, can't i react faster?! rah! but girl! 不管发生什么事, 要坚强k? that's what i have been telling myself all these while too, but sometimes it's easier said than done, esp when it keeps coming n u have to embrace yourself everytime. it's tiring.
it's true that you'll gain something when u lose something, well, she gained the love letters from her 2A. i reallythink she's one lucky happy girl. so it isn't that bad after all, we are just never satisfied. but i just can't see what have i gained. sometimes gg to school everyday is just a mundane chore like 2 years ago.
thinkin back, were the days i spent in tj happier? more carefree? cos i just don't just hold on tight and just let go?
oh... i miss my darling huiqi!! all e talking n seeing u everyday, miss it so so much. u just suddenly poof out of my life this year, haven't got used to it yet. n my tkd ppl, i really really miss them. they were the ones who made my life much much happier in tj. withiut them, it would be super boring like most others experience. i guess thay wre the reason why i think jc life isn't that bad after all, unlike what e others thought of jc n didn't really miss it at all.
i thought i wouldn't miss it but in fact i did! as i alighted at bedok last wed to go back n train with holy, all e memories flooded back. as i walked past e coffeeshop n market, i missed e times when e lunch clique argued whether to go left or right. and e tkd ppl, where we trained till our muscles ache at night and e glucolin we gluped to keep our strength there. going home with niang n chasing the tortise no 3 late at night ard 11 plus... awwww... hai.
well, they were sweet memories at least.